disappointed

warning: i may contradict myself in this blog

I'm bothered most by responses to the Wright clips on the web and the responses to Obama's speech in regards to Wright. Wright obviously at one point or another did teach Obama good christian values as he will not disown or turn away from someone whom may have said some things to disappoint them. He did not run from the comments and in this action/speech i still admire Obama but fear that most of us, myself included, have lost touch in being more forgiving.

I have, in the past, turned my back on people somewhat close to me because of being hurt by them. My father had let me down in more ways than one and I have never been able to truly say goodbye to him to this day although he has already passed on. More recently, a friend passed judgment on me for a decision Alex and myself had made. Her judgments hurt me a great deal and caused me to start doubting trust. I turned my back on her. I can justify this that the problems I had with these people affected my health in which it did. I need to forgive myself for turning my back on these people before I can remotely forgive them. I just wonder sometimes if I truly want to forgive them.